Reflections

 

It just hits me like some huge tsunami wave. And the truth is, I’m really scared of so much uncertainty in my life right now.

I cant even confirm whether i could enter a university next year when all my other friends are already preparing to start a fresh new chapter. :< brooding….

And i have no direction whatsoever after studying too. 
We are born, then we study like hell, fall in love, get a job, get married, have kids, get sick, and then die. Most people’s lives are more or less part of this cycle.

And the thing is, I had always believed there’s got to be more to life than this cycle, isn’t it?

But what is there isn’t? This is all so fucking scary. It feels like i’m going through some mid-life crisis now and I’m only 20! Wtf.

Okay, shall stop thinking too much and going back to my banana oatmeal cereal. :>
Supper after 10, and *poof there goes my Slim Down Project for the 100000 times.

  

& I feel so much better after writing. I always do. :>

It doesn’t stop.

Its going to be the same everywhere isn’t it? People are always gonna talk behind your back be it the smallest mistake you made or even some nice act you did.

It never stops.
And it’s getting boring.

/I need a major makeover, period

Worst BBQ ever.

That’s why i choose to walk away.

24

A few more months, and it will be Christmas again.
End of my job contract, and perhaps when i had made my decision, it would be another few more months to school!

Getting holed up in my house makes me a little gloomy nowadays and it makes me think too much sometimes. This time round, I’m not going to listen to anyone’s opinions anymore.

 I’m just gonna bet on what my heart says to do, and hope its the right choice for me. 

the pox

Hi all,

I think i’m down with chicken pox. Can’t believe i’m that suay to have gotten it from my colleague when we didnt interact much!

Sigh. That means i have to stop my driving lessons for 2 weeks at least… Man. I really enjoyed driving now! Drove from Ubi all the way to Tampines on my 2nd lesson, and my engine died 3 times. Haha.

Itches like crazy all over. Taking 11 pills per day, awesomeness.
BYE.

The bad habit.

If you are not going to do anything about anything, no one can help you except for you yourself.

Doing nothing means you are always gonna stay at the same point forever. Its time to take a step forward out of that mundane cycle. No matter how small the step is, it is still a step.

You may not get to the finish line faster than others, but by taking those small steps, surely you will get there too.

I need to stop this fucking bad habit of procrastination and get a move on with my life. Time to stop saying things and not doing anything at all.

i’m out. xo

Does anyone know where is this place?
I am going to visit it in the future.